I'm recovering, but no one cares. No one says go job or I'm glad. Recovery is just a fucking joke to them. To them its just another thing I'm going to fuck up in.
I am afraid to purge tonight. I don't want to start again but I ate and I couldn't stop. I don't know what to do and I am freaking and it has been three hours and I want it out, I just want it out of me, I was weak and I ate and I want it to go away!
Sometimes, i get pains so bad that i can't move for a few minutes. i cant talk. They hurt more than anything. i'm to scared to tell anyone. I think they must be serious.
I'm terrified that me being away at college will make him forget me. I'm so overwhelmed by the freedom right now that I'm afraid I'm going to stop eating altogether. When I got to school I didn't grocery shop for three days so that I had no excuse to eat. I also didn't get my university ID card so I couldn't eat at the dining hall. I'm scared that I'm going out of control, and that he will break up with me because of it.
I dont want school to start again because i'll have to see him. every day. and remember what we had. and i'll feel fat and ugly and fucking stupid and it will all start again.
Seeing diet plans and requests for "motivation" on PrettyThin annoys the shit out of me. If you wanted to lose weight, why the hell do you need someone to motivate you?
I feel like I don't belong on PT because I haven't had a single friend request and I keep sending requests. I know it's silly but I feel like the funny fat kid that's so pathetic she needs to befriend everyone and people just say "ok" not to hurt her feelings. I feel like such a twat. I wanna be skinny :'(
I feel so left out on PT. I hate when people make topics about, "so-so is so amazing!" I cry every time I see a topic like that. I always wondered why does no one like me enough to make threads to cheer me up. PT has made me cry more in my life than anything else.
I feel like I don't Belong on Prettythin. I feel useless because I can't seem to be noticed and I can't help anyone at all in anyway. Any post I make almost always becomes ignored and I barely have any friends on here. Is this how I deserve to feel? :(
I seriously worry that one someone from prettythin will die. These people are like family now, do you know how much it would hurt if one of them died?
ReplyDeleteTMI: I can't digest corn anymore! It just goes right through me!
ReplyDeleteI finally told him. Now I am waiting for him to reply.... I finally told him how I felt.
ReplyDeleteI finally told him. Now I am waiting for him to reply.... I finally told him how I felt-
ReplyDeletewould you have an online relationship?
Depends on how he feels about it. If not I am happy being friends.
Sometimes I doubt if I am even anorexic. Is it possible to be a borderline anoretic? I hate feeling like I don't belong in one category.
ReplyDeleteSometimes I shower in a swimsuit because I am disgusted with my body
ReplyDeleteYou annoy me more than you could ever imagine but I like you too much to tell you to go away.
ReplyDeleteIt's only the 2nd of January and I've already purged seven times, how long am I going to last like this, the worst thing is I'm not even scared...
ReplyDeleteI love you. But I don't want you to love me yet. I want to have to work for it.
ReplyDeleteI want you to hurt me so I can hate me and be thin again. I love you.
I am about to go purge. Vegetables. Why vegetables? Why do I even eat if I'm going to purge them? It's a fucking waste. I'm a fucking waste.
ReplyDeleteI'm recovering, but no one cares. No one says go job or I'm glad. Recovery is just a fucking joke to them. To them its just another thing I'm going to fuck up in.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry.
ReplyDeleteI am afraid to purge tonight. I don't want to start again but I ate and I couldn't stop. I don't know what to do and I am freaking and it has been three hours and I want it out, I just want it out of me, I was weak and I ate and I want it to go away!
ReplyDeleteI hate your new girlfriend so much but I keep her as a friend on facebook because whenever I see her updates I lose my appetite. </3
ReplyDeleteI told myself I'd stop binging and purging.
ReplyDeleteBut today I bought thirty dollars worth of candy to b/p on this coming weekend.
I'm such a fucking waste.
Sometimes, i get pains so bad that i can't move for a few minutes. i cant talk. They hurt more than anything. i'm to scared to tell anyone. I think they must be serious.
ReplyDeleteI hate myself for loving you because I know I would never have you......
ReplyDeleteI'm terrified that me being away at college will make him forget me. I'm so overwhelmed by the freedom right now that I'm afraid I'm going to stop eating altogether. When I got to school I didn't grocery shop for three days so that I had no excuse to eat. I also didn't get my university ID card so I couldn't eat at the dining hall. I'm scared that I'm going out of control, and that he will break up with me because of it.
ReplyDeleteI dont want school to start again because i'll have to see him. every day. and remember what we had. and i'll feel fat and ugly and fucking stupid and it will all start again.
ReplyDeleteI'm planning a binge for this weekend right now.
ReplyDeleteAnd I cannot wait. :|
Knowing I can binge and purge on the weekend is what keeps me going through the week.
Seeing diet plans and requests for "motivation" on PrettyThin annoys the shit out of me. If you wanted to lose weight, why the hell do you need someone to motivate you?
ReplyDeleteI feel like I don't belong on PT because I haven't had a single friend request and I keep sending requests. I know it's silly but I feel like the funny fat kid that's so pathetic she needs to befriend everyone and people just say "ok" not to hurt her feelings. I feel like such a twat. I wanna be skinny :'(
ReplyDeleteI never want to be near my hw again, yet my gw may kill me, I'd never admit that in rl.
ReplyDeleteI feel so left out on PT. I hate when people make topics about, "so-so is so amazing!" I cry every time I see a topic like that. I always wondered why does no one like me enough to make threads to cheer me up. PT has made me cry more in my life than anything else.
ReplyDeleteI feel like I don't Belong on Prettythin. I feel useless because I can't seem to be noticed and I can't help anyone at all in anyway. Any post I make almost always becomes ignored and I barely have any friends on here. Is this how I deserve to feel? :(
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